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[Aug. 25th, 2006|02:43 pm] |
I think Im going to make a new journal later. I haven't in forever.
It's time to start fresh. |
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[Aug. 24th, 2006|10:09 pm] |
You know those friends you want to remember..and then you have those friends you just want to forget, but you can't.
Yeah, blalock is one of them.
Anyways, I was just thinking about how good I have it. I love waking up next to the person I love every morning knowing that he isnt doing something behind my back, he isn't going to leave me, and he loves me you know that real love that's really hard to find. I have that and Im never going to let go of it. Im treated like a princess. I am a princess, damnit.
For his birthday I think we're changing up plans just a bit. Birthday night will be spent at home with two bottles of wine. Before we began drinking at home will be dinner at the new hip Sushi restraunt that he's been wanting to go to. Then, we'll be staying at this beautiful brand new hote/casino where he can gamble a bit, buy drinks, and do everything he's ever wanted to. It has a beautiful pool with cabanas that Im going to rent out. Plus, we'll be together..and that's all that matters.
:)
I wish Jen and Tom could be there. This will be nice for us though. Some time alone. hehe. |
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[Aug. 24th, 2006|08:44 pm] |
i got a babysitting job. 18 months & a 5 yr old. im actually loving the idea of this because i love kids and they love me. as long as they arent complete creeps ill be okay.
blahblah, going to the bowling alley to talk to the manager tomorrow.
went to the grand casino today to eat lunch. they had deep fried oreos, twinkies, and snickers bars. serious biker food.
i have to get back to cooking dinner. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|10:08 pm] |
if you don't leave my name out of your fat ass mouth i'll tell everyone everything i know.
every little bullshit lie you've ever told.
just watch, you "made" me right? well, i'll bring you down worse than you already are.
bring it on sweetcheeks, bring it on. no one can attempt shit talk with jen & and i and win. jen already proved it to you and i'll prove it all the way in god damn mississippi.
i will ruin every friend you have. i'll tell them everything you've ever made them feel sorry about. everything you've made them pity you for.
you'll no longer have pity in your life. and that's what you live on right?
let's get this little party started. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|02:18 pm] |
So, my mother is sending me a blank check for Jeremy's birthday. Basically, money doesn't matter when it ocmes to this so she says. She's lost her mind. She's giving me a blank check...anyways. haha. My mom must be ballin' more than she was before I left. Mommy loves me again.
This is my list of things that I need to get/check out/see about/maybe buy him. Some of them are just things Im thinking about and some are what he's getting.
Two bottles or Four (lol) of red wine.
Dinner at the new hip Japanese steak/sushi restraunt.
Ipod
Nikes
Xbox
(Those are all up in the air)
Drum set or guitar
(he gets a choice of two of these presents above)
White t shirts.
New shaver.
Gift card for Abercrombie.
And of course Im going shopping at Victorias secret.
Best birthday ever for a boyfriend? Well, I love him and apparently my mom does to. The check will be here in roughly four days.
Im stoked on having a 21 year old boyfriend. WOOP WOOP! |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2006|10:47 pm] |
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you were my brother. you were my best friend. you were my world at one point. i thought i was in love with you at another point, but that was just silly dumb teenager things. we used to know each other inside and out. i remember when you visited me at the hospital when i was really sick and you walked me down the isle with my IV, just to talk and get me out of that room. we spent countless nights laying in my bed laughing and laughing at the dumbest shit. talking about our futures, what we were gonna do when we were older. i tripped my balls off for hte first time with you. i thought you were hot shit when i was like 12. we did everything together. you came to my family occasions because you were family. you were my best friend..my brother.
now..who are you? where did brian go?
i'll probably never see him again.
and sadly, i don't ever want to now.
i feel so bad for his family. i actually feel bad for heather. i really feel bad for his little baby. for his little brother who is just like him. for his dad, the greatest guy in the world. the nicest person on the face of the planet.
damnit brian, you turned into exactly what i always hated. i thought my children were gonna grow up in a house next to you. now, i don't ever even want you to be around them. i feel so bad for you, because you really do need help and i really hope you get that. i really fucking hope you do and i mean that.
if you ever read this, even if its in 5 years. i love you and i always will love you like family. even though what you did disgusts me and is horribly wrong. i'll never stop carring for you. i hope your child is okay and i hope heather can somehow get through this because i truely feel horrible for them. at first i thought this was hilarious, now im just disgusted with myself for thinking that. i just can't i care too much..and sometimes that works out for me.
i guess you never really know anyone..and everyone changes. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2006|12:02 pm] |
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HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TOMMY FU! |
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[Aug. 21st, 2006|09:09 pm] |
im getting sick again, but i always have him to laugh at. he does such a good job of loving me. the best :) |
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[Aug. 21st, 2006|03:16 pm] |
so, i just bought our tickets for the fest in new orleans. it's two days so im really really excited.
i get to see the flaming lips, social distortion, kings of leon, wu tang clan, broken social scene, ballzack, my chemical romance (lol), duran duran!!, secret machines, red hot chili peppers, and like 60 other bands.
i am sooooo excited! now i just have to start marking a calander to when i get to see all of this in one of my favorite places with my favorite people. it's only a mile away from the french quater! yayyayayayayyayayay!
:):):):):)
ps jen; you can buy the tickets on ticketmaster. |
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[Aug. 21st, 2006|01:20 pm] |
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I wish someone/anyone would burn me every death cab cd they own and send them my way. I miss listening to them, BAH!
I don't have any cds besides ones I just purchased. I've never known what life was like without a cd collection, ahhhhhh!
It's making me go insane. I miss my music & Limewire is so slow with dial up.
Buh. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|11:46 am] |
i had a dream last night that there was a huge nazi bar/clubhouse at the boardwalk in daytona. all i have to say is, that place was bumpin more than razzles is.
also, i have 300 dollars to spend on jeremy for his 21st birthday. i have a few things in mind, but i obviously can't say them because i know he'll be looking for hints! he already won't stop asking me. im also going to cook him a really cute candlelight dinner which is going to be when i give him his presents. i also think we're going to new orleans so he can get trashed & get that out of his system one last time. well, besides when tom and jen come here. that just doesn't count. it's obvious that we're going to be wasted when they play with us.
i might get a job at this bowling alley. i really hope they hire me. they aren't open yet, but i realllly need a job and i can take the bus. awe, all the buses here are hybrid buses!!
plus, it's one of those new "hipster" bowling alleys theyre building in california. im stoked, working there would rule. we all know i am a bowling master. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2006|10:28 pm] |
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apparently, it isnt illegal to not wear pants and only undies.
im never wearing pants ever again! |
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[Aug. 18th, 2006|12:16 pm] |
my vox invite is taking 30 years :[
i am going to swim my life away today
NAP ATTACK in about 10 minutes
i seriously love my new bed.
california king with feather down comforters.
nothings can beat that!
weee :__:
that nigga didn't kill jon benet or whatever her name is. i watch so much svu i know i am correct. who wants to place bets here? 10 bucks a pop. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2006|10:07 am] |
i hate when i post pictures of an outfit i put together myself then other people go out and buy it. not only do they buy it, but they brag about it like it's something new. ugh.
first 48 is on tonight, blahblah.
jeremy doesn't have to work tomorrow which means i will be killing him in scrabble more times than the usually once. im seriously turning into a scrabble master.
we bought gabby dog chocolate mints today. they smell so delicious it's so weird.
oh, i made my tator tot dish for everyone last night and they loved it. i think im going to make beef stew tonight because that sounds deeelicious.
we moved the pool yesterday. FOUR HOURS in the sun. im seriously browner than i ever was in florida. it was so hard and we didn't have jeremy (he was at work), but we did it with no mans help.
women reign supreme! |
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[Aug. 16th, 2006|04:57 pm] |
new icon i <3 big brother
laguna beach is on tonight!! |
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[Aug. 16th, 2006|10:43 am] |
last night was one of the scarriest nights of my life. everything was fine and we were watching law and order in the living room. i went outside and realized that about 20 miles away it was lightning contiously. it wasnt stopping at all.
then, seriously 5 minutes after i say something everything in our backyard starts flying everywhere. hitting the windows (which didn't break), flying in peoples backyards, the neighbors roof is even fucked.
we went outside to see what the fuck was going on because seriously it was fine 5 minutes ago. we had no thunderstorm wanrings at all. well, outside the sky was green, orange, purple, and black. all in different parts. it was like a huge circle. i've never seen ANYTHING like this. then all of a sudden shit started going insane. our power went out. the lighting was striking right by our house. the wind was going in every direction. the sky was BRIGHT fucking green.
our power didnt come back on for two hours and i pretty much almost cried. ive never seen jeremy scared before, it really freaked me out.
seriously, the earth is so pissed at us. ive never seen a storm like that in 18 years of living. global warming is real. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2006|09:04 am] |
today im traveling over to the planned parenthood to stock up on some more birth control.
cause unlike some people im not a god damn idiot and will not have a pea in my pod anytime soon.
besides, i have to wait until jen is ready because i aint getting fat without her ass being fat too. |
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[Aug. 14th, 2006|09:31 pm] |
DIPSET DIPSET DIPSET DIPSET
DIPSET DIPSET DIPSET DIPSET
DIPSET DIPSET DIPSET DIPSET
*raises roof*
^ i cant stop doing that irl
im bringing it back |
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[Aug. 14th, 2006|06:06 pm] |
i seriously cannot fucking wait to see my best friend and her gay ass boyfriend again.
*raises roof* |
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